I’m back on the interwebz.
Shikari - Robot WarsI returned to Buffalo from visiting my mom in PA on January 17th. Justin came for 5 days, but I was there about a week and a half prior. When I was riding the (disgusting) Greyhound bus there, I was looking out the window and as the landscape gradually got hillier, I smiled to myself. My ears popped as we drove further south in Pennsylvania because I was no longer used to the high elevation; Western New York being flat and all. I started seeing Eastern Orthodox churches with their beautiful gold domes, restaurants advertising homemade pierogies, and row after row of townhouses. I remember when my mother moved to this small town just below the Poconos. I hated it and moved after barely 2 years (when I was 18). Going back was refreshing though, despite the slow drawl of the area and lack of exciting culture – it was nice to be back in my home state, even if I would have preferred the Lehigh Valley or Philadelphia.
When I got back in Buffalo, it was… the same. It seems my problems were waiting for me at the door. I can’t cope with how complicated things have become with my boyfriend and I – but I don’t know how to fix things and I’m sick of being the one to change. I missed my mom and started feeling like a lonely, boring person again. My brother kindly upgraded my computer when I was at my mom’s, making it truly gamer-worthy and it is now solid awesomeness. I’ve been playing Assassin’s Creed, which is probably over a year old by now, but I don’t play video games that often. The first day of Spring semester was today, but I didn’t go. That sounds crazy, but I’ve been feeling sick and just didn’t feel like it. Justin screwed up his enrollment by never dealing with the financial aid office and now he still can’t register for classes. We don’t even know if he’ll be able to attend this semester yet. 
It depends on if he can get a loan processed in time.
Christmas has been over for a long time now, but our tree is still up. I think Mr. Bojangles will miss it when it’s taken down. He usually naps underneath, on the skirt.
This is such a melancholy post, so I’ll try to be more exciting next time. I would like to keep things rolling on this site, so in honor of that wish I put up a new layout featuring An Albatross. They make me happy. 
January 22nd, 2009 at 5:01 am
Ash…I am the freakin’ QUEEN of melancholy posts. Haha, so you’ll hear no complaints from me. Except, of course, that you’re feeling down in the first place.
By the way, I just noticed in your Twitter Feed that you couldn’t watch Pineapple Express because it sucked. I agree, totally. I forced myself to fall asleep while my friends watched it a couple of weeks ago. Maybe it would have been better if I could relate to smoking pot. But I can’t, so it wasn’t.
I’m glad you got away and could see your mom. If you need something, I’m as here as the internet allows. :)
Love.
- Heather
January 22nd, 2009 at 5:02 am
Ohhh yeah.
I like your new theme a lot. I meant to say that first…no such luck huh?
- Heather
January 23rd, 2009 at 8:42 pm
I definitely understand complicated relationships, hun. Follow your heart (sounds cheesy but usually works for me).
- Amy
January 24th, 2009 at 1:01 am
amy, i don’t recollect ashley asking for advice, but i’m sure she appreciates it. her heart would thank you, but it can’t respond as it only functions in a strictly anatomical fashion.
- justin
January 24th, 2009 at 1:03 am
Justin, shut up and be nice for once. I swear, nothing gets past you. You’re like the fucking comment police.
- Ashley
January 24th, 2009 at 1:05 am
ashley, don’t act like i didn’t do you a favor.
- justin
January 24th, 2009 at 1:06 am
Well, you know I have to keep order around here. Protecting my 5 visitors takes priority.
- Ashley
January 24th, 2009 at 1:08 am
yeah, i’m the reason the rest avoid your site now. but does it really matter? do you really need more 16-20somethings leaving comments regarding their misguided notions of romance and what exactly emo is?
- justin
January 24th, 2009 at 1:10 am
Hey, that emo article from 05 or 06 is like my best ranking page.
Go on yahoo, fag. Actually, turn your head to the left – I’m like 10 feet across the room.
- Ashley
January 24th, 2009 at 5:24 pm
At least they’re being nice, however stupid you may think they are. And I doubt anyone’s avoiding anything here.
While we’re handing out opinions, I think posting hateful comments on someone else’s website is rude and ridiculous. Especially when they don’t have much, or anything, to do with you.
But I guess everyone needs a bully…
- Heather
January 24th, 2009 at 7:30 pm
Wow, I’m just going to ignore the comment drama that’s brewing over here…
In other news, it’s good to hear from you! Melancholy entry or not, it’s nice to see you’re still around. It’s been a while. :/
- Christina
January 24th, 2009 at 9:07 pm
heather, i never referred to her as stupid. i also fail to see how my comments are hateful. they’re condescending, and yes, rude, but not hateful.
now that you’ve mentioned it, though, i am full of hate. and i love directing it towards everyone.
i am not a bully, though. i am an asshole. there’s a difference. a bully picks on anyone they see as weak, an asshole finds something about everyone to complain about.
- justin
January 24th, 2009 at 10:39 pm
Sorry for putting words in your mouth. And for blowing up. Seriously. I could stand to mind my own business too.
I’m out.
- Heather
January 25th, 2009 at 3:13 am
it’s not like i’m innocent. i enjoy irritating other people. convincing them that i am civil, or can be, after having pissed them off is quite fun.
- justin
January 25th, 2009 at 1:51 pm
Hey Ashley! It’s nice hearing from you. I hope everything goes well for you. Relationship problems suck, and I suck at relationships so this 19 year old won’t offer any advice, other than sometimes, it’s okay to walk away.
And by the way, I don’t think that you’re immature or stupid for having a bunch of 16-20somethings comment on your website. It seems that the people you associate with on the internet are in the whole blog scene for all of the right reasons: for the joy of it, not myspace bullshit. But what do I know– I have a misguided sense of, well, everything.
Take care.
- Hannah
January 26th, 2009 at 12:57 am
again, i never called anyone stupid or immature. so if that was a subtle, yet not-so-subtle reference to my comment, it failed at making sense.
apparently you don’t know me that well. i don’t yield.
- justin
January 26th, 2009 at 10:42 am
Go eat a bag of dicks, douche bag.
- Hannah
January 27th, 2009 at 5:01 pm
it’s “suck a bag of dicks”, and if you state it correctly next time, i will consider.
- justin
January 28th, 2009 at 12:29 am
I’m sorry to hear about you and your boyfriend. I’ve been living with mine for a few months now and sometimes I want to kill him LOL. But I do love him! It’s always good to go back home and spend time with your family. Hope things look up soon for you!
- Steph